Performance anxiety

I am very fortunate to be surrounded by an incredibly supportive group of people.  My family, my friends and my followers and my fans, my colleagues, my collaborators, my collectors and my clan, I really couldn't do what I do without them.  Whether it's keeping the wheels turning at the office, providing inspiration, a shoulder to lean on, or a last minute meal (thanks Momma!), I am able to do what i do and I am who I am because of them.

And therein lies the rub.  They have all wished me well for my trip to New York, they have all expressed their desire to see my photos, they have all assured me they will be amazing.  So how do I avoid disappointing them?  Why do I feel this pressure?  Where is this need to perform coming from?

Any good Sports Psychologist will tell you that pressure is not something that is put on us.  They will tell you it is something that we manifest ourselves.  It is in fact an illusion, a trick of the mind.  We feel pressure because we imagine what might happen. What if I can't produce the goods? Win the game? Get to the airport on time?  And then I start to realise, that apart from getting to the airport on time, it doesn't matter.

When I started shooting street photography I made a conscious choice to shoot for myself.  I wanted to capture the stories that I saw, to document the lives that were being lived around me.  Something I was and still am passionate about.  I wasn't doing it for other people, I was doing it for myself.  Along the way, there have been many people that have come along for the journey and that has made it all the more richer an experience for me.  Some come with preconceived ideas about how I should be shooting and I can listen to their opinions objectively without being thrown into 

So that's all I need to do.  Continue to be myself, put my heart and soul into what I am shooting.  I JUST NEED TO SHOOT FOR ME.